August 3rd,2010.
Today I made a final decision on whether to have more babies after this pregnancy or not. With a little hesitation,I decided to sign the papers,to have my tubes tied,if I have a c-section. Though it takes 30 days go in affect,they know I prefer it and IF I go for another 29 days then I'm good,if not then I come back after I'm healed from c-section and have a procedure done.I have two options,either tubal,through belly button or through the vagina,which they would place tiny coils,and it would make me sterile. This was/is such a hard thing to do..I'd love 100 more kids(well maybe not that many,lol)but the cost of my life is more important..and I will soon be the mother of two beautiful children,and I have to think of their future as well. I don't want to jeopardize their happiness in any way. If my health and our finances were better,then maybe..but who are we kidding,it's just not happening!
Im sure I/we made the right choice,and I'm sure there will be times I regret it..and who knows,maybe John will regret it in some ways. We have one another and the family we made together,so we will learn to be happy with all that God's Blessed us with and be just that...Blessed!
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